To All The Attentions...Thank You

Dear Julia,
I never think to stop trading unless I can't trade anymore. After three years of trading with negative result, I can't believe I am still doing it. What drive me keep trading because never in my life I have things that I liked to do to the fullest. But liking with talents not always in the same line.

The reason I want to trade it's I want to help people, in trading of course. I really want to help but instead, I am the one who need help. I remembered when I have good few months in trading, I made very encouraging and positive post all over the place. Like embrace the losses, keep discipline, etc. I know you also like to help people. But maybe the purpose for helping people is to satisified my ego needs to become important. But never in my life, I am happy when other people suffer. But I am happy if others doin' good or fine.

About stop losses, I will contact you later but since our trading style is different, I am not hoping too much. Thanks for writing me this long. Appreciate it so much.


Dear Jules,
You are indeed a very good person. And all your writing really touch me a lot. You're right about me. I already cut my trading time only at US session. And all the free time, I did useless things. Whether it's still related to trading or just surfing around aimlessly. One of things I really want is having a good proportional body. I am slightly overweight now lol. Too lazy to go to gym, or maybe don't want to see other people cause of my miserable background.

I place the trade to number one priority because I want to give happiness to all the people I loved. My parents, my so, my families, my friends, including all the blogger out here, everyone. Placing trading as number one priority in life is not good. It's just business. Really, I always want if I made consistent in trading, I will reduce the activity to the minimum.

As you suggest, I'll do other activity to balance my life. Thanks, it's really enlightening me. Do something for nothing, that's something I lacked of. How do you know a lot about me :) ?

Honestly, I really disliked to get sympathy from other. I want to be the one who help people, not otherwise. But my condition now actually really need help. So thanks for the all the help you give me. I really wish I can pay your good deed later.

Hi FX,
Wednesday trade, if I was in my best condition to trade, I'll still take the same losses. I did very mechanical trade. Sometimes the difference between win and lose is only one trade difference. Now the only thing encourage me is, I have good confidence that I can recover from this losses. Not a revenge trading. Simply a discipline trade will cover my losses one or two days. Why? Because I learnt everytime I made loss, I'll figure it out what's the problem? Is it my lame execution? My undiscipline trade? Or my lousy system. Wednesday is just my lousy system, so I think nothing wrong with me. Looking to improve my system. The only improvement now is make a fewer and more fewer trade. Until even I losed all my trades that day, I'll be okay. On my way to it.

I'll write the emotion. U're right cause I can't write my personal life to the blog. It's embarrasing though nobody knows me in person. Thanks for the advice. I'll do it.

Now, at my state, I have no rights to give advice to you. If you don't like it, it'll be fine. I think you taking profit too early in your trading. Since you used Oanda, why not letting one or two small lots to move far beyond your imagination?100 pips?200pips? I can't do it in oil since I already trade one contract. If you trade one, now trade 4 with same size of capital. I rhink you already know it cause it's in Mark Douglas book.

Hi Cory,
Thank you for the chart but I really don't know what you mean..


Summary:
Thank you for all the advice and attention. Losing is really never a good thing, especially if the losses or profit become the number one priorty in my life. So one thing I'll do is...the hell with losing. I mean it's not like losing forever. It's become like gambling but...you know what I mean.

The system worked. Only it need a little improvement here and there. And today, I am ready to rumble again. Worst thing can happen? Losing another $500, lol. Best thing can happen? Never know for sure.